Another one I wrote a while ago:

Where is comfort? 
I know nothing of her.
I know only of her 
sister, distress.
I cannot go much longer
feeling so detatched.
I long for her gentle release
Why do I not find myself
in her tranquil grasp?
Firework, awaken my soul.

I wrote this a little while ago:

I am a rubber ball of anger,
I am vicious, I am spitting.
I am rage and I am vengeance.
Where do I belong, and with whom?

I, isolation, belong alone.

Exercise on Story

This is something I wrote for my creative writing course, "Recall an experience that changed you. Write about it with a traditional opening of a story"

Let me tell you a story. It ends in a cold doctors’ office in the Royal South Hants Hospital, and it begins that very morning at a toy shop. A toy shop that my mother and father had taken me around and where two new dolls had been presented to me afterwards for my entertainment. This was the first thing about my life that changed on this particular day. I had been on at my parents for months to be given a doll like these, for these weren’t just any dolls, but dolls on which you could draw your own face, change their hair, their clothes, even the designs on their clothes! Ever since I had seen them advertised on TV they had been the objects of my desire. I named them Mary-Kate and Ashley after the two twins from the television that my best friend and I had idolised.

Anyway, I don’t really remember how we got from the toy shop to the dark office in the hospital, belonging to a Dr. Weedon, but that was where the day, and life as I knew it, ended.

As a six year-old, the conversation that Dr. Weedon was having with my parents didn't interest me in the slightest. I was hearing everything that was being said, but I took much more delight in giving my new dolls names and walking them backwards and forwards across the floor, pretending that the rainy city I could see through the floor to ceiling window was not, in fact, boring, rainy Southampton but the sunny and exciting LA where my two dolls lived. I dreamt up cars and parties and shops for them, everyone wanted to be their friend and they had everything they wanted.  I enjoyed colouring in stamps with different eyes and lips on in different colours and carefully pressing them against their blank faces, too much to care about the adults’ conversation. The excitement of changing their hair colours to long, purple hair with pink streaks to short blue hair took up all of my attention.

I was happy in my ignorance. I knew my dad was ill, but still, I was happy. But then the doctor used a word I knew to be bad. I didn't know what it meant but I knew no one liked this word. From here on, our old lives would be over. This is what Dr. Weedon said to my mother and to my father:

“I'm sorry to tell you this, Mr Curtis, but you have cancer.”

Alphabetic Poetry

I wrote this in my creative writing seminar today at uni

Ascend.
Bring
Control.
Defeat
Evil.
Fly,
Glide.
Hello,
I'm
Joyful.
Kites
Looping.
Marvellous
Night.
Over
Protective
Quiet.
Realise
Something
Terrific.
Underneath
Veins.
Where?
Explain.
Yellow
Zen.

(Un)relinquished

All of a sudden! I see from the corner of my eye
Opportunity glitter something manic,
Panic, I can't shake this
When will I rest my head?

I could open my soul,
Freed like a bird from a cage
To leave me and never come back
And to be free and happy and living

To breathe in joy
And to live so strong
Loving until every last bit of my body is consumed by love
Choking me, but is this really what I want?

Isolate yourself, that's what you should do
Clamber back into your cage, head hung.
Shame, it could have been nice
But I am not cut out for this dream.

Box

I am in a box.

I jump, I break.

I long to be released.

My stick limbs pound but

The box does not budge.

I, skeleton girl, am stuck.

I can see outside

People are shining and smiling

Where is my freedom?

Description of a character through description of their hands

"I looked at her hands as she held them under the tap. On her left wrist was a tattoo of a bird soaring over her veins towards the palm. The palm of her hand was barely visible under swirls and scribbles of black and blue ink, detailing for her all the tasks she needed to complete throughout the day. There was a long gash down the inside of her right palm, running from just below the little finger down to the base of the hand. If the stories were true, that scar was a red river of violence and fury, leading to a deep sea of pain and vengeance. No one ever dared to ask if the stories were true though, the bloody little line on her hand intimidated them all..."

Untitled

Your eyes are a blue million miles
I could spend days sailing through those seas
but days I do not have, and oh, there's your smile!

Brighter than the brightest star
But time flies by at such speed
I could write pages about your smile, but time does not stretch that far

I hope you can forgive me for not wanting to wait
But the more time we waste the less time we have
So why hesitate?

Writing Metaphysical-themed poetry in English class

Untitled Sonnet

Love, like a mirror, has no heart but plenty of ideas

Hours of anguish and admiration beholding a distant figure on the other side

Ahead of you a vibrant soul burning with passion, beauty and fear

And to you they seem so untouchable, and there's such a huge divide

So strong you feel your heart being torn in two

One for you, one for them though they'll never receive

The most precious gift that you can part with due

To the notion that you are not, and never will be

One to meet the expectations, and pain blazes so bright

You're blinded, and you're praying to any god and anyone

Knowing that they won't care or listen but hoping that they might

With all this confusion and emotion you feel your mind come undone

Love, like a magic mirror warps and distorts

No heart has a mirror only damaging thoughts.

June 16th 2011

You

When you smile it's at my heart
And you pull me back
To light, to life, to love
Flying, gliding
Clouds below sail by
We can move mountains
I'm carried on your wings.

Your eyes tell a story -
Different each time I look into them, they
Catch me, hold me, keep me
I fall, I plunge
Into them. Deep river of thought
I drift and and sink
They're my favourite.

Your arms pull me in
Hold me to your heart
Blanket, shield, rock
Uphold, upraise,
Time slows, a minute a heartbeat,
Existence beyond you and me is gone
In that instant everything is perfect.

But it is your ferocity that hypnotises me
Hold me in your blistering palm
Blaze, rage, ignite
You are fire, you are the inferno
Passion melts us like snow and burns
Erupt and spill, anger and emotion cascade
Hot magnet, attract me.